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Deja Vu?

Posted on 2006.01.30 at 06:54
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: JewelyaZ - Brushing Teeth
Marriage. On the one hand, it feels like I've done this before. On the other, I don't think that before was ever like this, so maybe I haven't. The first time, the last time, when it was finally over I swore that I'd never get married ever again. I never knew it could be like this though. I never suspected I would find someone that I loved so much, that I had so much in common with. I didn't think that I could be this happy ever again.

I know that some of you who read this will know what I'm talking about and be happy for us. To you I say thank you. You are all wonderful friends and I wish you all the happiness and success in the world.

There are some of you who will read this and have no idea how I/we/she could be this blind, stupid, insensitive...well, insert your personal flavor of bitterness and lack of understanding here. To you I would say I'm sorry. I have been where you are. I have been cynical, bitter, angry, rejected, confused...love is complicated and it doesn't always seem fair. If I could say anything at all to you it would be this...stop trying to be in love. Be yourself and be okay with that. The rest will just happen.

With that all out of the way, I'd like to declare publicly to all the world that I love jewelyaz more than I thought I would love anyone else ever. I think she is the most amazing, wonderful, loving, caring, interesting person and I can't wait to marry her.

jewelyaz I LOVE YOU!!!


Am I Lucky or What?

Posted on 2006.01.09 at 09:28
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: INXS - New Sensation
".", I said.

".", she said.

"?", I asked.

"...", she hesitated.

".", I said.

".", she said.

":-)", I said.

"LOL", she said.

"?", I asked.

"!", she replied.

"!!!", I nearly shouted.

"XOXOX", she said.

"I love you!", I said.

And that's the story of how I met my beautiful, wonderful, smart, talented and amazing girlfriend.

Thanks Hasbro!


Today was the first day of the rest of my life...

Posted on 2006.01.05 at 23:55
Current Mood: lovedloved
Current Music: I-405 - Midnight Traffic
Something happened to me today that I don't think I should talk about here in public until next week perhaps. That said, I just wanted to make an entry to note that today is the beginning of what I think will be the most beautiful and amazing experience of my life.


I guess some people never change...

Posted on 2006.01.03 at 16:34
Current Mood: mellowmellow
Current Music: Jane's Addiction - True Nature
Okay, so I took the Jung type test again. Previously I'd been typed as a definite INTP. I answered the questions honestly, but I felt like my answers were different this time, since I feel in a lot of ways that I'm a different person than I was when I took the test years ago. That and I've been noticing some behaviors in myself that don't seem to match up to my type, especially around the Introvert/Extrovert area's. But imagine my surprise when I saw the results...Collapse )


Gimme Your Tots!

Posted on 2006.01.03 at 08:17
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: Actual Nature - Birds Chirping
Two Thousand Six has started off with a bang! Say what!?Collapse )


It's been a long time

Posted on 2006.01.01 at 03:46
Current Mood: tiredtired
At Thanksgiving dinner my friend Jen took a picture of me. I don't like the way I look in pictures, and this one was no exception. However, Jen said it was a really good picture of me and I usually trust her opinion. She emailed it to me and when I downloaded it I was feeling a bit bored, so I thought "Hey, why not stick this on hotornot.com and see what happens?" So I did and one of the things I discovered about that site is that you can set up to 50 keywords of things that you are interested in. One of the words I put down was 'Scrabble'.

A few days go by and I get an email that says that someone on the site wants to meet me. She was interested in playing Scrabble online. So I replied and we set up a game. It's a play by email sort of game, and when you take your turn you can put in a comment to send to the other player. At first there weren't a lot of comments or the comments were strictly game related..."Nice play", "I have horrible letters"...that sort of thing. Gradually the comments became conversational and over the last week or so each turn has included long emails back and forth, supplemented by a lot of real time conversation via IM.

As I've gotten to know her and told her things about myself, I've discovered that while I still (and probably always will) enjoy playing Scrabble with her, I find myself looking forward to the conversation more than the chance to make a word. We have a lot in common. She and I were born only a few hours apart, myself on July 10th, she on July 11th. Some of the things we have in common are things that I would have guessed only I cared about, and when I hear her say she has a fondness for those same things, well, it's a lot of things...odd, amazing, wonderful...I have so many thoughts about her. I find that the more I get to know her, the more time I spend thinking about her and wanting to get to know her better. I want to spend time with her, go out and do things with her, stay home and watch movies, play Scrabble live and in person, put together puzzles, talk and talk and talk...a million things. I don't know how or what or anything about what's going to happen between us, but I really, really like her and I think she likes me too.

It's been a long time since I felt this way about someone...too long. Like I said, I don't know what will happen, but I think it will be something wonderful and I think 2006 will be an amazing year.


Hello World!

Posted on 2005.12.31 at 11:55
Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Current Music: Talking Heads - Psycho Killer
I went snowboarding last night for the first time in a couple of years. There was an accident at the pass and I had to sit at a dead stop for two hours while trying to get there. I was only three miles from the ski area and I was tempted to pull over and walk, but I knew I'd never be willing to walk back to my car after the fact. When I finally got there it was pretty amazing. I spent some time on the 'kiddie run' just practicing and getting my 'snow legs'. Got stuck in powder a couple of times, which isn't a bad thing. My only regret is that I had to go alone. All of my friends are either not snow people, out of town or otherwise occupied with work, head colds, etc. I did create a playlist on my iPod specifically for snowboarding, and between Janes Addiction, Soundgarden, Black Sabbath, AC/DC and others, it was a good time. Nothing like hurtling down a mountain at breakneck speed while listening to loud, aggressive music.